November 19, 2006 • 4:59 pm
My last paper is tomorrow. From 8am-9am. After that, its “liberty”. But, I don’t sound too ecstatic do I? Hmm. I don’t know. I don’t see anything better after the ‘O’ levels than before the ‘O’ levels. Life will still be as boring as before, maybe even more tedious with work. Perhaps you say, I don’t have to mug anymore? Well, my rebuke is, I’ve never mugged to begin with. And anyway, its not as if I don’t ever have to study again, I still have studies next year, and next next year, and the year after that, and my education just goes on. What kind of boundry is this? Just because you have already sat for your set of ‘O’ level examinations, doesn’t really mean you don’t have to study anymore. If you go to a Junior College your going to have to mug as hard, no, maybe even twice as hard as in secondary school. Then again, I’m going to a Polytechnic, but still, theres still work involved.
Thus, I don’t see why everyone is so elated that the ‘O’ levels are finally over, I mean, if your going to work, it only means more stress. Somehow.. I’m not really looking forward to the future. Anyway. If you feel obliged to, please feel free to correct my thinking, in any way you want, be it commenting, or be it stalking me, or even murdering me. I don’t really care. (:
p.s. I don’t care if you(the readers) read my posts or not, or you visit my blogs to see pictures(which are inexistant on my blog.), I’m just posting this post to vent my feelings.
Filed under: Rants.
October 18, 2006 • 12:30 pm
October 11, 2006 • 8:34 pm
Maybe I’m disappointed. With myself, with all my friends, or whatever you call them. Perhaps I don’t feel appreciated for what I’ve been doing, perhaps I’ve been doing too much. Or maybe I’m just expecting too much of everyone, even myself. Maybe its all my fault, I’m just over-reacting. Over-reacting at the fact that I don’t feel loved. I don’t know, theres so much maybe’s and perhap’s. Maybe I should just shut up. But thats only going to accelerate my condition.
Maybe I blame the people around me for letting me get into such a state I’m in now. Perhaps if they had done something, then I wouldn’t have gotten this far. I realise I’ve strayed from the path I was on, and that I’m lost, suddenly, in the middle of no-where. Maybe I’m playing tricks on myself, maybe I’m playing tricks on other people, but I’m certain that many people are playing tricks on me. Sure, use me like a tissue paper. But I’m disgusted at the way you do it. You use it over and over again, wiping that crap from your nose, using it till it gets all full of your crap, then throw it away. Thats just disgusting. I’m ashamed at myself for even knowing people like you. Feeling guilty? Oh thats fine, your not alone. Join the club, the whole bunch of them. I’m so glad that I have a club after me. Not a fan-club, not a hate-club, but a make-use-of-then-diss-off-club. I’m feeling soooo proud. Thank you all.
Still reading? Not? I thought so too. Your just skipping through the whole post aren’t you. Why would you bother to read the stuff I write? And don’t you dare comment about how sorry you all are or whatever crap. I don’t want your apologies, I don’t want you to swear. Who you are has made who I am. A person filled with hatred, pain, and most of all, nothingness! I’m apparently just an empty shell with a few gigabytes of brainspace to store in the shit we learn in school. Thats about all, isn’t it? Theres nothing great about me, I’m just a sucka who falls for your idiotic ways. Oh so sorry, I’m not scolding any one of you, I’m just highlighting that I’m so fed up with my life, and that I’ve quite really given up. Thats about it.
And I’ve only got one thing left to say.
Oohhhh. YOU JUST WAIT.
Filed under: Rants.
October 9, 2006 • 7:36 pm
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